Don’t Look Back my owl meme counsels: You aren’t going that way. But I still look back over last year’s journal entries. I am looking for any premonition of the trouble that defined 2020.
Nada. Unaware I was; totally.
But, I noted some advice that now seems providential:
You can’t think your way through trouble; you have to live through trouble and learn to think.
One thing this past year showed me – what I have learned through 2020’s troubles – is not everything going on in my head is thinking.
Projection isn’t thinking.
Neither is worry. Or overreacting. (Which some people in my family say I am a classic . . . )
This year showed me that all three responses crowd out thought.
Maybe I think too much for my own good
Some people say so
Other people say, “No no
That fact is
You don’t think as much as you could”
~Paul Simon, “Think Too Much (a),” 1982 ♫
2020 sure gave me TIME to think, removing so many hindrances to thinking I have excused as duties, obligations, and responsibilities – like housework!
Not that I was up for any awards as a housekeeper.
Living through 2020’s troubles, and 2021’s challenges, I am grateful I am living – with Doug. This much I know, believe, and trust.
Just as I have chosen to believe God’s fingerprints are all over the past twelve months.
“Whenever anyone tells you that coronavirus means that God is calling people – perhaps you! – to repent, tell them to read Job. The whole point is that that is not the point.” ― N.T. Wright, God and the Pandemic: A Christian Reflection on the Coronavirus and Its Aftermath*
So, I think I will let go and let Him inform my thoughts, (John 14:15-23) and reform my imagination. (Philippians 4:4-9)
“Actually, the best answer I’ve heard in the last few weeks has not been to the question ‘Why?’ It’s been to the question, ‘What?’ What can we do? . . . The garden is far less likely to grow weeds if we have been planting flowers.” ― N.T. Wright, God and the Pandemic: A Christian Reflection on the Coronavirus and Its Aftermath*
* God and the Pandemic: A Christians Reflection on the Cornovirus and Its Aftermath
You might enjoy what I am learning about exercising the little Gray cells, as I try not to look back too often:
Ah, my compadre in the overreacting branch of 2020: thanks for your blog today.
Kindred spirits, we are dear Flo! Thank you for reading and commenting. It’s not as good as a real-life visit, but it feels good!